The Art of Surrender

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The Art of Surrender

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This season has truly tested me and challenged my faith. It has been a season of both overflowing happiness and spiritual dryness. Its trademark has been the highs and lows of everyday life. Feelings of unworthiness and overwhelmedness have invaded my heart and taken me captive. I feel like I am trying too hard, running fast but getting nowhere; I am quite literally stumbling over myself, running faster than my feet, trying to escape my thoughts and my emotions, but what am I trying to outrun, the devil or God?

To be honest, I am not sure. My heart is so tangled in things that are far from the truth, who God says I am. Getting out of your head to see the clarity, direction, and purpose that God fills you with is a challenge that I know all too well in this season. I am slowly starting to learn the art of surrender; laying who I think I should be, or who society says I should be at the feet of Jesus. In order to be whole, it is imperative to run after God, to have a destination to run to instead of just running away from things. When you realize you’re running to God, when you stumble, you stumble into the arms of a Father who is exploding with love to pour over and into you.

I came across a quote that has served its purpose in this season, “There is nothing wrong with falling at the feet of Jesus in silence. God can hear your tears, he knows your heart, He knows you. You don’t always have to speak.” WOW! Your faith is defined by your willingness to surrender your WHOLE heart to the Lord. Not just the main parts, but every part. God wants the mess; the crumbs that nobody- not even you- want. God wants you. He will chase you down until he weasels his way back into your heart. Stop believing the lies. Romans 5:8 says, “I loved you at your darkest” and Psalm 55:22 says, “I surrender my worries to you because I know you will care for me.” God has us in his hand. He carries us through every season of life and loves us, even when we are not faithful. He wants to invade every fiber of your being until you feel WHOLE. Because of Jesus we are able to boldly face and carry the throne of God- without fearing or doubting.

God doesn’t call where He doesn’t lead. If you are questioning your purpose, or struggling to stay balanced, if darkness has somehow creeped its way into your heart- lay it down now. Get on your knees and lay it at the feet of Jesus. He will take it away from you and carry you through the rest of this season. Jesus already loves you and knows your heart. He heard you, just be patient.

XOXO

Authentically,

Ali